“I realized how much I depend on outside validation for feeling worthy and loved. I have lived with internalized judgement and based my worth on that.
Today I remembered the doctrine of original sin and that was the cloud I began life under. I was taught one must overcome their natural disposition to do wrong. Now I believe every choice and experience is an opportunity to learn something new and that love, as opposed to judgement, is the driving force behind existence. I have been searching for a purpose in my life but now wonder if simply living each day based on being loving and kind to myself and others is enough.
I loved [the inner child] part! I have always been told what a fussy, skinny, unhappy baby I was. Imagining cradling my inner infant and celebrating their birth was a joyful rewriting of my history! I felt pure love ushering me into existence.
Immediately afterwards I felt calm, peaceful, relaxed and happy listening to your gentle, loving voice and the beautiful resonance of the crystal bowl.
I find myself stepping back and wondering about my reactions and reminding myself that I am conditioned to certain responses. I tell myself I can choose a different path.
[My favorite part was] how much joy, peace, and love I experienced within my being.
Thank you again, Amala, for all you do.”